Well I'm stuck. I can't get any of my ideas out in a painting or even a sketch. It makes me so discouraged that I can barely practice. When I do practice, I'm an unfocused mess and I struggle to learn anything. I get anxiety thinking about how hard other people are working while I'm lying around in a confused trance.
Does anyone else have this problem? Has anyone found a way to deal with it? There are so many things I want to do, and I can't seem to do anything at all. It's like I'm frozen in a block of concrete here. My ambition is to be a freelance illustrator, and I've never even been able to do satisfying personal work as a hobbyist. It's painful. I mean seriously agonizing.
Trying to learn art on my own with no real structure hasn't done me any favors. I seem to be incapable of applying most of the things I know and finding out what I don't. For a long time I've felt like I needed a mentor to kick my ass and show me how to stop making the same dumb mistakes, but there are no decent classes or groups where I live, I have no artist friends, and even the wonderful support I've had in my sketchbook thread doesn't quite supply the hands-on guidance I think I'd benefit from. It's frustrating to feel like there are people out there who could show you how to instantly improve your bad art habits, and you have no idea how to find them. So yeah.
I feel kind of dumb for saying any of this. I know practice is the key. I know that only a few decades ago, artists were getting by just fine without the internet and all of its awesome resources. I'm actually surrounded by art books and materials at the moment, and my body might as well be glued to the ceiling for all the good they're doing me. I'm never going to give up, but this problem has been dragging me down for a long, long time. It's a daily struggle.
Thanks for reading, lol.